You are standing in the kitchen, perhaps, or leaning against the cold laminate of a counter, holding a phone that feels heavier than it should because of what you are trying to decide. The decision is not whether to buy the thing-the thing is already in the virtual basket, its price of $119.99 a settled matter in your mind-but whether you can justify the space it will occupy once it arrives.
You are looking at a digital checkout page, and the fields for your credit card number and shipping address are already populated, glowing with a helpful, predictive readiness. Yet, just a few minutes ago, when you tried to type a single sentence into a search bar about why you have been waking up at for the last , your thumbs stalled. You could not find the noun for the specific quality of your exhaustion. You could not decide if the weight in your limbs was a medical fact or a moral failing.
Amira knows this paralysis. She sat on the edge of her bed last with a notebook